Dating

Originally I wanted to start a blog about dating after my divorce. Well, I have decided that dating is not on my "dash board" right now. There are some many unspoken rules.... I haven't given up on love, as corny as that sounds. But I have decided to not be hyper focused on it.

I have had some good dates, some bad ones, some clinically insane ones and it has been a good experience. What has caused me to take a step back is my current relationship(s). I have had a long distance relationship for a couple of months and at first it was OK... but then all thoughts started to creep into my mind: is he dating other girls, is this serious, what the heck are we doing? I would find myself waiting for him to call and his calls went from every other day to every week ... and less. That made me think about that movie 'He's just not that into you'. If he really wanted to call you he would find the time. People find the time to do what they really want to do. So I decided to let go of that relationship.

I began dating someone locally and it was 'OK' no fireworks just a good guy. Within a few weeks he told me that he loved me and wanted to introduce me to his son. Whoa.... partner. You don't know me that well and I definitely don't know you well enough. He continued to be kinda emotionally passive aggressive. Wanting me to say I love you, wanting me to meet his son and when I declined he told me it was depressing and how he felt hopeless etc. So I decided to end that mess. Know who I did it? I loaned him some money lol! It worked like a charm.

So now I have decided to take a 'man-cation' and I am not dating until I finish my MA and feel emotionally stable to do so. Wish me luck!!