The Grieving Process

My new lesson for today: In order to heal from something you must acknowledge the hurt. When you say it doesn't matter when someone hurts you, you are pretending that the injury never happened. You are saying that it never existed, good or bad...You can not go through the grieving process if you deny or ignore that there was pain.

The funny or not so funny thing is that only people close to you can hurt you. Only people you love can cause you such deep pain. You/I have to allow myself to work through the pain to arrive at the other side. Otherwise it is just covered up and the pain,hurt,anxiety raises its ugly head when ever it choses.

I once loved a man more than I loved myself. I did everything that I could think of to make him happy and to give him a better life. I learned that the only person that I can change is myself. The only person that I can give totally acceptance to is myself. I learned that love is only a gift if its accepted. Last but surely not least I have learned that you have to love yourself before you can accept love or give love to anyone else. Can't give what you don't have right?

I did love you. The slow dieing of our relationship did hurt. And saying good bye for ever hurts too. So good bye Beloved. Peace to you and your new life. And peace to all the memories good and bad that surround this experience.

Good bye to the past and hello to the future.